Loving Others' Kite

Difficult. There is guilt (sometimes). Doing what you don't like is risky and challenging, yet if you look at the other side of the paradigm, it is prudent. Why? I looked more on the needs of others, especially my family, before mine.

If you can still remember on one of my reflection papers, on the book Like the “Flowing River” by Paulo Coehlo, there is a part in there entitled “Flying Others Kite”. I stated my struggle in giving up my passion for my family's sake.

I do not want my parents to get disappointed. They have great expectations on me. Honestly, I am still having confusions regarding the 'degree' issue now. There will always come a point that 'What if I shift course?', 'No James! Do not do that! Think of your family!' Haaay. . .

I love my family. Everyone, perhaps, does. Everyone, also perhaps, wants the best for his or her family. Everyone will do his or her best to shun and overcome any ordeal that they will encounter.

I learned in my Economics 11 class last year about ‘opportunity costs’ and that nothing is free. The concept of opportunity costs states that something is earned when another thing is given up in exchange to what you got. In accounting, it is not always cash inflow. There will always be cash outflows in the form of expenses for operating, financing and investing activities in a company.

You cannot own two things at a time, especially that one is willed to be given up. Unfortunate for me that what I should give up is my ‘happiness’.

Give up. Give up. Give up. I may often think that life is all about giving up.

True. Life is a quest of your happiness. Happiness is not about what makes ‘you’ happy. The epitome of this pursuit is not egocentric. It focuses on how you make yourself as a tool in making other people’s happiness come true.

I don’t want to be an accountant. I want to be a journalist. Irony: I am taking Accountancy, not Journalism.

Acceptance is the hardest part of all. “I am flying my parents’ kite — the kite they made for me.” This kind of acceptance is mediocre. Love is the missing element here. For you to show and justify that you made the right decision, you have to face and accept its consequences. You may not expect what these are, but what I am trying to say is preparing oneself to anything. Love is its prerequisite.

I am learning to love Accountancy now despite the fact that I still wanted to be a journalist someday. I learned that being a ‘journalist’ does not need to take a journalism course. If there is a will, there will always be a way. I am doing this for a purpose — for my family. I can do it!